now i don’t have any energy for i haven’t take my lunch and dinner yesterday, cried myself to sleep,headache,toothache, arghhhhh. i am really fortunate that i didn’t caught a cold or fever .
kepala saya pening . sangat pening . saya mau nangis lagi . wish you are here jie :(
i cried a lot today . i didn’t show this part of mine to my friends . its started when i received the replied text from upu saying that my appliance to the university was not accepted. i was so astonished at first. but i must be strong and i kept on smiling in front of my friends. its raining when the bus stopped at the bus stand. i walk slowly as the rain falling on me. the umbrella stay still in my bag . i kept walking and crying in the rain because no body will see me crying in the rain . i felt like a completely looser . i failed . i am down . and now while typing this post . my tears still streaming down my cheeks. sorry jijie for not picking up your call. i cant let you know my pain :(
i was so jealous with my friends. why did they have to be that lucky . God help me. please
i was really jealous with my friends, most of them are really on their way to further their study . while me, haven’t receive any offer from any university . frustrated much ! why me . oh God , i feel like a looser here . please :’(
help me . help me . help me . i need miracles to happen . self-confidence become much lower when i am in this condition . hug me :(
Kol salah . Xkol salah . Can i die in peace ka?
That’s it .i raised my gun . I am done here . Since we can’t be a friend nor a couple . Lets just pretend not to know each other . I cant hate you since i loved you too much . Don’t be nice to me again cause i might fall for you again . We are even now right . Lets take our own road by now. Bye loved , wish you the best of luck for the future. Be strong .
While you are busy out there and not spending even a minute with me, other guys was running to catch my attention . I was so worried that i might falling to them because i hate the fact that i will be needing to forget you .
My presence was not important to you . It is really okay whether i am with you or not. I felt like i am no one but the person that always reaching for you. I AM NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU . thanks :’)
- Me : *sending msg* you are busy again right .
- Gg: yea . I am sorry huh .
- Me: no that's alright . Iloveyou . That's it , bye :)
- Gg: *not replying*
- Me: *sad* just few moments later my phone rang. Hey?
- Gg: ilove you too :)
- Me: what?
- Gg: ilove you too*whispering*
- Me: why are you whispering like that?
- Gg: i'm at the library.
- Me: hah got it . Okay bye :)
- Gg: bye :)
Today penat jln jauh . Fuhh tidur
I feel like crying when i saw his text just now . Why why why . Wuwuwuwuwuwu :(
I really missed you syg but idk what did i do that. I didn’t mean to treat you like that.
Ignore me please